Seven years ago, my life was on a dead end street. After years of working hard as a geologist in several countries of South America, I was a very “successful” executive, working for a major corporation as the Knowledge Manager, making a lot of money, fancy restaurants, travelling business class, but of course with a lot of responsibilities, available 24/7 and… sleeping pills, anti-anxiety pills, no kids, no permanent relationships, etc.
I was feeling very lonely, empty and unhappy. Interestingly enough, most of the people around me would have given anything for my job and my lifestyle. That made me totally confused and with the sensation of having wasted my life, but also with the sensation that I was missing something. There had to be another way, there had to be something else. I had to do something.
I quit my job, joined a yoga center, and there, there was a workshop on meditation, based on the Spanish edition of the book Meditation and the eight-point program. Thank God I joined it! We covered one point per week, and at that time, with no job, I had the time to really dig deep on every point, and observe my old life, my spontaneous reactions to external stimulus, and how easily I used to lose my patience with others. It was an extraordinary, profound period of introspection, but of all the eight points, Slowing Down changed my life forever. I swore to myself not to do anything in a hurry ever again, with the same determination as Scarlet O’Hara showed in the movie “Gone With the Wind” when she said “I’ll never be hungry again.”
That event was really important, and it helped me very much to redirect my life; but after a couple of years, Easwaran’s company and teachings began to fade. Since I couldn't find fellowship and I didn't have anyone to talk with about spiritual matters, the inertia of my old habits was pulling at me strongly to repeat the same mistakes as before.